Please help me about this, I don't know what to do...?

Ohh I'm so glad I'm not a teenager anymore...honey listen to me...your life hasn't even begun yet. Don't let anyone, even a parent, make you feel like you want to take your life. Life is a gift, don't waste one minute of it worrying about what other people think or how they treat you. Trust me, you haven't ruined your life LOL If your mother is making you feel like ****, tell her. If she's making you feel worthless, TELL HER. She's angry, and she has a right to be, but if her treatment is having this big of an effect on you, then make sure she knows. You're just a kid, and you've learned your lesson, don't do something you can't undo.