Ex boyfriend... What would you do?

I think that you are dealing with way too much grief and stuff in your life...(at this time anyhow) and you are finding that being with this dude..is what is "helping" for you..but, personally...he's NO help...He's using you,,as you are using him!! Wouldn't you rather be in a better loving relationship? By the way..if he threatens himself in front of you...(I have been here..with an ex) they are full of BULL and trust me..you don't want to have to deal with that garbage at all!!) He sounds terribly mixed up to me..and he is making it worse for you(and you are also doing this to yourself!!) Try to do OTHER things with new friends..reach out and try to meet some OTHER people...You do NOT need HIM and he does NOT need you...YOU are going to end up really hating him in the end...and yourself..if you keep at this!! There are better people in the world, trust me on this!!! (Hey..I think that you even have helped ME with your letter, believe it or not!! Thanks!!!) LOL!!!