How to get the courage to check SAT scores?

SAT scores come in today and I am very nervous. My dad's birthday was yesterday and he always speaks of my education. I really don't want to let him down after I received an 1800 from last time. I also want to get into a good college and I'm just very nervous. I encountered many disappointments with my grades, and I'm tired of it. I'm just keep feeling that I did bad, even though I feel like I did alright during the test. However, experiences with class tests and other things can prove that statement wrong. I know this sounds lame, but any advise? (By the way, I'm Asian).